This post is the fifth in a series that shares my Divine team talk (conversations with and insights from my Divine team) since March 2020. (In case you missed it, you can find the first here.)
Tuesday 31 March 2020
Meditating & running energy, I was going to do a world/Earth-healing exercise, but my guides told me that is not my job right now, that my job right now is to stabilize energy, essentially holding space open and keeping clear the column of energy connecting Earth and the center of the Universe. That’s what I’ve been doing for the past 2–3 days, as well, so while I’ve been sleeping and sleepy and anchored fully in my body by the allergies and headaches, I’ve also been helping to anchor the energies.
Whatever that means. I’m so out of sorts from the schedule disruption [COVID-19 closures leading to my entire family being at home all day, every day] and the current strange feeling of the world that I don’t even feel rooted in knowing my purpose. Nothing makes sense right now. That is, I don’t feel rooted. I do my best on most weekdays to maintain a routine to keep some sense of normalcy, but these two weekdays of illness coming just after the weekend, when we let go of our routine, has me feeling somewhat untethered.
Tuesday 7 April 2020
It’s only been eight or nine days that I’ve felt not [physically] normal, but emotionally, I feel as though it’s been forever. The stress of life doesn’t help, of course.
I’m normally resilient—or at least I like to think I am, so this is unsettling. I can tell that I’m physically better than I was last week, so I’m frustrated that I feel so bad today. But that means I’m suffering over my suffering, which is never helpful, so I’m attempting to simply look at this, study it, and learn what I can from being in it.
I did my oracle reading earlier this morning, drawing Thurisaz (Gateway) from the runes. It’s a rune of nonaction. But oh my gods, I’m so tired of nonaction and inaction! My problem, I guess, as it so often is, is being too attached to a certain outcome—becoming upset that events are going differently from how I want them to.
Considering that actually helps me feel better. I can’t control anything, including my thoughts and emotions. The best I can do is go with the flow and do my best to choose and temper my responses.
I feel like my brain, body, and soul are all trying to process too much information at once, like a computer processor that nearly grinds to a halt after being given too many tasks and too much data to sort. In such a situation, you walk away and let [the computer] do its thing, but that’s so difficult when you are in the computer.
Wednesday 8 April 2020
Freaking out because of continued pain and discomfort, spoke to my guides in the shower.
They told me I am strong and I must continue to be strong and to have faith. They are a completely different team from the guides I had even just when [my son] was born. They are steely. Loving, yes, but steely.
They told me I am always told exactly what I need to hear and know in the moment. They told me to release my fear and worry in the shower, then get [my son] to bed, then come to them and let them speak through me like this. When I asked how they will speak to me if I am unable to get their message this way, they emphasized that I will get the message this way, as I do for other people. When I protested that hearing a message for other people is so much easier than for oneself, they very sternly told me that is only because I don’t question the messages I get for others—their “tone” implying that I am to open, channel, listen, and not question.
The kids are both still in the bath, so I’ll take the opportunity now.
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What do I need to know about my physical health right now and all the pain I’m going through?
Nothing more than you’ve already been told. You will recover faster if you take it easy on yourself. You are creating an unnecessary burden on yourself by resisting.
Yes, you resist, without even knowing. The way to stop resisting is to be in your body instead of always thinking of everything else. We tell you everything at once because you do not listen if we start quietly, so we must yell at you. This is nothing to be ashamed by or chagrined at. You are stubborn because only being stubborn would have gotten you through the challenges you had planned for your life. Without it, you would not have made it this far—and you had to make it this far, in exactly this way, to be able to do what you’re going to do.
Your body is fine. These are changing pains. Not even growing pains. Consider them birthing pains if you must. Keep treating the symptoms as you must to endure, but don’t push too hard. The baby comes when it is ready, and it is not yet ready. Yes, your son came the way he needed to because your womb couldn’t yield. That was not failure on your womb’s part, or yours. It is simply the way things had to be for your lessons and progression. It is the same now.
Let go of the trauma when it surfaces. You are holding many traumas in your body, and they are working their way free. Do you remember what you did in your year of shadow and light? You prayed, you studied, cried, yelled, showered, ate differently. You were on a spiritual quest then, as you are now. Do the same. Stop fearing for money. You will have money enough if you do what you must. No amount of exhortation on our part can make that any clearer. No matter what we might tell you, you will not believe us until you DO IT. You must give in to your prayer and study, to care and attention to your body. Those are your top priorities—the care of your body, spirit, and soul. Do this, and all else will fall into place.
Follow the flow of the day. We will guide you each day if you let us. Not a schedule, but a routine. That is what you need. Allow your body to follow its own routine. The rhythms of your house follow your rhythms. Your children’s rhythms follow yours—so long as you don’t disrupt the rhythms with electromagnetic waves.
You have learned much and have benefited greatly since your son was born. He continues to offer you chances to learn and grow. You [therefore] need not fear him waking before you [in the mornings]. Follow your routine.
Wake
Meditate
Study
Eat
Work
Exercise
We will bring the work you need & will take away the work you do not need. We will bring the money and the clients you need, if you will trust us to do so.
We speak directly to you. How can it get any clearer than this?
Do your part, and we will do ours.
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